I managed to catch my cool duo before they went to their first birthday party ON THEIR OWN! Yes, that’s right, they went to a party and I left them there!
As I child, one of my earliest memories is being dropped off by my parents at a friend’s birthday party. As soon as my mum walked out of the door, I remember screaming the house down. She didn’t even make it out of their driveway before my friend’s parents had to wave her back to come and get me. I must have been a year or two older than my boys are now, so I expected them to need and want me there with them too. I thought T2, at least, would try to cling to my leg as I said goodbye, but both of them ran in to play and didn’t look back. My heart broke as I stood in the doorway watching them absorbed in their own little world with their friends.
Husband, E and I walked around the corner to have a pub meal and a glass of wine. E slept through the entire thing in her buggy, which meant we got to have grown up conversation and enjoy the food instead of asking small people to sit down/stop throwing food/keep their voices down/eat their dinner. It was very bittersweet because although it was lovely, it was a sign of what’s to come as the kids grow up and start doing things without us.
For the first time in four years it feels like I don’t have any babies. The boys are getting ready for school and E is just coming up to 18 months so is a toddler now. I can’t decide whether to feel excited that the hard work/no sleep phase has passed, or feel broody for number four (which might I add is completely impractical and illogical given we’re about to emigrate!!)
I’m never going to feel prepared for them not needing me anymore. It’s a terrifying thought that I’m not going to be their whole world for much longer. I’m scared of having a house without babies in it, as it has been such an incredible phase of my life that I’m not sure I’m ready to give it up just yet. Somebody, please invent that pause button, fast!
They look soooooo cool bless them, both of their little shirts are gorgeous!!! x
Thanks! I think they’re little cool dudes! x
Katie @mummydaddyme says
Oh my goodness gracious me, what cool dudes! 😉 How cool are their shirts? They do look really grown up in this photo! x
They are starting to look like grown up boys now. Before I know it they’ll be doing their own hair and asking for brand named trainers! x
Le Coin de Mel says
They look pretty trendy, those little boys of yours! I could not agree more, they grow up so quickly… but as they grow up, they also become great little people and reading your blog and what kind of mum you are, I am sure you will keep being “whole world” for a long, long time! x Mel
Ah thanks. Their personalities are developing so fast. T2 thought he was too cool to even smile for me in this photo – it took me ages to get that tiny smile out of him! x
Oh they will always need their mummy, just as they grow it will be in a different way. I love watching the kids becoming independant, making new friends and enjoying life. They always have time for a mummy cuddle though.
I can really see their future in this photo – they have such a grown up look about them. It’s a scary thought that we might not have any more children but I know we’ve got so much to look forward to with our three as they grow up and go to school. xx
Capture by Lucy (@capturebylucy) says
We have just experienced this at the reception year parties! Not sure my boy is brave enough just yet! He still falls off the bouncy castle and cries for me! Maybe next year. But how lovely for you to have some quiet time and a drink! xx #ordinarymoments